Uncle Su’s Got Some.

A blank slate might help.

“Bull Shit.”

“Don’t screw with me.”

“Hmm, so Mr. Lie, between 20K and…?”

“Please don’t sound like you’re patronizing me when you don’t mean it.”

“I’m walking out the door.”

“I’ve got a better offer in… “

“Well here we go again, Mr. Lie, a commitment from us will take a commitment from you. Are you willing to leave a deposit today? Would that be Visa or Mastercard?”

“I’m sorry, but I thought we had an agreement there?”

“The best you can is good enough…”

Sorry for the lack of updates lately.  It has been a crazy month starting from the finals, the farewell for Ricky, Orlando and Miami trip (Nassau was canceled due to not having Visa), to being back in Ann Arbor, the daily snow and wind… And then there is the ballad that is GOING TO SCHOOL.

For the past weeks I have been pushing myself, falling back into procrastination and then pushing myself forward again… It’s a tough job, but I have to get things done just like everyone else. I could say that I have been working too hard and I should be proud of myself, but then I’d be lying to myself. I can do better, much better. The state of slum that I am now, only god knows how pathetic it is, compared to how I was half a decade ago. It’s a joke, frankly. Really. Recent friends would know me for someone who’s always having that inner struggle, that cha-cha-cha and salsa and tango between being active and passive. They’re 2 separate people at times…

But I digressed. I was just going to complain about the things I’ve put myself through (you may call it my cold turkey period). Like doing homework ahead of time, waking up before sunrise just to get to an 8am lab, doing this and that and finding out about millions of stuff and… Haih, yeah there I went, exaggerating everything again. Anyhoo, I just wanna say I can do better. And I should really do better.

Quote of the day: “Some people find it hard to catch a break, but for me I just can’t catch a struggle. And when they come, it’ll be all the struggles in one.” - John Mayer.

When I just arrived in Ann Arbor less than a year ago, the resources, college mails and advisers were throwing me with class schedules, concentrations, double major possibilities, a through-train program with master degree, internship, research, “you have to get active in student clubs and organizations”, resume, classes, homeworks, group works…

Bleah.

Yeah as if I need any reminder on why I particularly love punching the snooze button these days. Walking up easy is so underrated.

Good morning space rangers! It is now 1000 Wednesday and I am not, I repeat, I am not in class. Like yay! Like, I was one foot out the door when I realized I didn’t have my keys with me, and then I got to the door again and wow I realized I’ve left my evaluation papers atop the printer. And thus I was late for the bus. Viola!

I’m starting to dislike my macbook’s keyboards. A lot! They are not ergonomic, not sensitive to touch, and keep having syncing errors with the visual interface. I’m always afraid to say this, but for some tasks like crunching words and editing pictures, I find solace in a PC.  Everything else eye candy I go to my Mac. It’s like when you’ve got a hot horny girlfriend everyone other girl is jealous of, but you keep going back to your fat and ugly ex girlfriend just because she knows how to cook, knit and tell you bedtime stories. Word.

Word, ‘yo.

Here’s a little commentary and updates for my life this week:

Apparently I’ve got a post-examination blues, according to a friend. That friend who pointed this out to me for it worse than me. He’s been skipping more classes this week than the rest of the semester combined, hahaha.

Nonetheless, I took time for myself Monday and Tuesday, and ended up having to cramp everything up for Wednesday and Thursday. I am burned out again by Friday night, when everyone else is out having fun.

I worked Wednesday night till 4am Thursday, slept and woke up at 4pm to continue on the assignments and was done by 3am. By 5am I was still having problem sleeping so I figured out, heck I’m going to stay up today and set this biological clock right tomorrow.

On Friday I went for all my classes and did the whole shebangs with project work, and took a nap on 9pm till 2am. Now it’s Saturday 4.30am and I cannot sleep again. My parents called at 11pm and I totally missed the phone call.

To my defense a few cups of espresso and red bulls were involved over the past 3 days. Somehow I got into deeper mess this week than last week, despite having a more relaxed schedule.

I’m expecting myself to carry this pattern through to Tuesday, when the project is due.

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If all goes well I will be in Toronto by next week. I’ve come to such an obsessed state that the only concern I have of the trip is, “Hmm, hope I’ll get some time reviewing my classes during the trip.”

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I’m bailing out on Bloglines. Love, not even your new BETA can convince me to stay. I deserve better. I deserve faster subscription browsing. And for that big old sugar daddy google can provide with his reader. Bye for now, bloglines, I wish you well.

Meanwhile, I am getting back on board with coComment, just so I can track my flickr comments better. They’re all over the place! Account still active, check. Extension download, check.

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I have been guilty of watching too much TV episodes. Everything is uber online available now… nbc.com, abc.com, cbs.com, fox.com… the whole shebangs!

Grey’s Anatomy
Private Practice
Big Shots
Cavemen
Chuck
Bionic Woman
Heroes
30 Rock
The Office
Prison Break
Pushing Daisies
Scrubs
Samantha Who?

At this rate I will be wasting a good 12 hours a week watching these episodes. And I don’t even have a TV at home yet! I mean, wow!

Seriously Su, are you that busy? Really? 12 hours? That’s a part time job right there!

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Allen got his awesome photography blog set up. Awesome! Like hey, who cares if you don’t have a dedicated blog domain right. Nobody types in URLs nowadays anymore, anyway. Budget, but still quality stuff.

Hmm, been some time since I gave him a call.

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I might be getting my new lenses after thanksgiving. Sigh. I really have to learn something fresh or this photography thing is really wearing off me. I just realized how long I’ve stopped educating myself and how much I haven’t yet know.

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Cipta’s buying my old iPod for $50, I think. Bye to you to, Blackie, my love. I started out wanting to return you 2 years ago and keep the money, but hey, we’ve come a long way and I cannot thank you enough for the laughters and the joy.

On another note, I’ve just noticed my old skullhead’s superior sound quality over normal earphones. I’m putting them back on, despite all the molds and the sharp corner to the ears.

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I haven’t bought my Orlando ticket and the clock keeps on ticking.

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I hope nobody’s bailing out on the project on the last minute now that we’ve got most of the planning set.

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I haven’t exercised in 3 weeks and I feel like a blob of jelly. Well at least there’s still the occasional scooter rides, but they don’t count. I need to dedicate some time on real man sweating. Does anyone care? Never mind.

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I am probably going to sleep at 6am. May or may not be able to catch that UM Vs. OSU game. Sigh.

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I’ve stop caring if I’ve left a finger print mark on Pamela at all. She’s waaay filthy now. Yeah do your thing, filthy girl! I love ma’ Mac dirty!

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I text-ed Di this afternoon asking her when’d be a good time to call her if I wanna have a chat. Her reply was something like “Call me now, call me anytime, hey hey are you alright?” Either I have to be really honored she put me on such priority or my depressed persona is really taking a solid shape. I asked her if I was supposed to sound suicidal or something. But I fell asleep before I got the chance to call anyway.

Man, I miss my girls! I’m coming next summer! WHOOO!

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I’ve been downloading soundtracks from 流星花园. 你要的爱，情非得意。。。 I know, go figure.

I still haven’t been able to get my hands on the complete new Jay album. Baidu is so exhausting to work with!

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I should really stop giving human characteristics to my belongings and make more real friends, buahahaha.

I’ve got 3 midterms coming up but I haven’t any clue in class. I’m stressed out and as always I’m nasty over the phone with my parents. I’m such a bad son, so yeah don’t bother trying to lecture me, because I already feel a helluva guilty…

There’s just not much else to write in this blog nowadays, is there? I mean, the little things I want to pen down here is either already said and done and everyone’s sick and tired of listening, or they are too embarrassing to risk any judgment from people, or its going to make me public enemy number one. Because seriously there’s so many things and people I want to complain about, its not funny anymore!

I really need another avenue to vent my fumes. Maybe a private blog might work. Or not.