I’ll be gone when you’ve found time

Is it not enough? Can you taste enough?

The short version is that I worked my ass off and gulped down more caffeine than the body needs, sleeps little during night-time and had power naps during the day, ate junk Panda Express or a whole week just to shave off some minutes, the likes. And what do I have to show for it? I got 90s for all of my midterm papers last week! Is it not enough? Can you taste the enough? Arg SIOOMA!

Anyhoo… Feeling a little burned out the last few days. Why not rest? Because I can’t afford to. There’s homeworks and projects and future quizzes and exams to study for. It’s not even halfway yet. There’s more points I can lose here than the ones I have earned in the past. Oh my God what have I become? I’m conforming back to the GPA machine that I was 6 years ago! It’s a terrible transformation, but looking at the score spreasheet just make me jump up in excitement. I can almost taste page one! Well I’m on the top of page 2 (out of 2 pages), which make me somewhere below average, but despair I do not! I can almost taste page one. I am climbing my way back up. I am burned out, I am unhealthy and I am not having any social fun, but I will be on page 1. Yes, I will.

(OK this post sounds a tad creepy. I am scaring myself. *shivers*)

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