Uncle Su’s Got Some.

I’m not sure if I’m supposed to feel warm and fuzzy inside, or process a restrain order.

Is it geeky to be sentimental towards my last lab session in Shoreline? Even with the carcinogenic methyl chloride and all, even though going to lab kinda shorten my lifespan by an inch, heck I’ll miss doing all the radical stuff in lab. =(

… to 15th March.

Is this what they call divine intervention?

Its pretty shameless to admit, but earlier today I just asked a schoolmate out on a date. *blush*

Kind of taken aback that she’s game with it. Could have just giggled myself to sleep tonight even if I got rejected, cause it was so exciting! Oh the rush of the chase, oh the cheap thrills of life… Lalala…

I’ve realized that for the past few weeks I haven’t really been updating myself much in this blog. Well, I have kinda, but most of them are but impulsive one-liners that would do fine for twitter.

So, here’s what I have been doing. I’ve been trying to psyche myself to study, to find time to apply to more schools, trying to bail out of some congratulatory ceremony, trying this and that. I’ve been trying to run around in circles, really.

I tried more of Picnik, and it seems photojojo and theory.isthereason is covering that now. Kewl. Did you know that you can get photos from flickr, edit it in picnik, and then replace the original with the edited one right back into flickr? Mind blowing. Picnik you are teyh rock.

I was doing extensive research on Tegan and Sara, the indie band I found out through bulk-torrent-downloading Grey’s Anatomy soundtracks.I browsed their Myspace profile, their official website, their fansites, their wikipedia page, downloading other people’s cover mp3s on their songs, downloading their mp3s from fansites, downloading their songs via torrent, album after album. I’ve found out they’re sisters, Identical twins, Canadians, both lesbians, have been out there since 1995, have their songs played in Veronica Mars, Grey’s Anatomy, One Tree Hill, and they have the most melancholic voices I have heard in a while. Makes the emotions pop out of their songs, I tell you. Songs to watch for are “Walking with a Ghost“, “I Know, I Know, I Know“, “Where Does the Good Go“, and my best favorite, “You Wouldn’t Like Me“.

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I have been jugging between organic chemistry, linear algebra and macroeconomics this weekend. Sorry to business students but your classes are like paid-vacation for me. I just have to say it, OMG, the kind of effort expected out of my macroeconomics class, and the grade I will get despite it, its really ridiculous. Really put us engineering students in perspective. But just to clarify, I don’t have friends or don’t have as much fun because of my own personality, not what I am pursuing in college. Moving along…lalala=)

Linear algebra’s been a bitch. I’m looking at a 20h weekly commitment and a 3.0 if I’m lucky. Organic chemistry is under control, but you can’t be too cocky with that class.

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I should go jogging now that the sniffles are gone. But its so cold out there, I’m just lazy. I am rambling. Am I rambling?

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What is it with people on MSN? Nobody has kept a decent conversation through IM with me this weekend. My headcount was at around 6-7 people. This include an ex-girlfriend and a good friend. Either they start ignoring you after teens of sentences, they hit “away” without warning, or their line just go dead. No manners, no cyber manners at all. Uncle Su not happy.

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I really shouldn’t talk about work in my blog. Not very professionally ethical, people say.

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I keep having the impulsive feeling to asking random girls out. What’s with that? I thought singlehood is supposed to be about freedom? Why its more of strangling me slowly to my death these days.

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Tegan & Sara rocks! =p
I hope they come to Seattle soon. Siling would be proud of my good taste, and uh my discovery.

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Photos available here. On a personal note, I really dislike people who have all the right photographic kits and yet take lousier photos than I do. And I am very bad at taking photos. Syet.

I have come to realize that all these is just a big messy cycle. Work hard, slack, get overwhelmed by what you’ven’t done, work hard, repeat.

I’m still finding the answer to this whole mystery. There’s an answer, I’m sure.

You wouldn’t like me - Tegan and Sara

Heard in Grey’s Anatomy season 1

More of Tegan and Sarah here and here. Teyh are teh rock!

In a good way, yeah. Wow!

update: I had Hawaiian LL for lunch, got a Frap in a zillion years, got a free drink coupon since they left it too long in the blender. (Great service, starbucks! I love you!) Had chinese dinner, karaoke, free bubble tea (thanks Martin, Angel), met up with like-minded minds who are surprisingly and pleasantly in the mood for a bitching session, and I slept in today, woke up to play basketball and I’m washing the 4 weeks of laundry.

Tonight is not going to slow down, either. MUAHAHAHA!

I’m having one of those days when I’m in Q4 my whole day, I don’t feel like doing anything and I’d rather stay in bed. I have many “what ifs” in my head and I don’t feel so good about the future. I’m self-reflecting on problems in the past, and the more I think the less of a good person I see myself as.

I need help. Whatever.

Ingin kubunuh pacarmu
saat dia cium bibir merahmu
didepan kedua mataku
hatiku terbakar jadinya cantik
aku cemburu

I was dancing along to this tune through dawn. Perks up my day, hahaha. But no, I won’t kill boyfriends because of jealousy. In fact, I’ll keep them close. If he’s a potential suitor’s “keep your friends close, keep your enemies closer”. If he’s a past suitor’s “the enemy of my enemy is my friend.”

Valentine’s is really getting in my head.

• So Here We Are - Bloc Party “I made a vow, to carry you home… If you fall sick, if you pass out.”
• Can’t Smile Without You - Barry Manilow
• Sing, Theresa Says- Greg Laswell
• Black Horse and the Cherry Tree - KT Tunstall

Happy Valentine’s, people!

There’s this girl in class with whom I always flirt with, subtly.

I’d like to think that she’s into me. But the better senses of mine tells me she’s just humoring my sad sad life. Hiks…

Transferring to CalTech has been my dream goal.

My parents have always told me to get the best for myself, and so I really looked out for myself. But then there are naysayers out there, friends or not, discouraging ones who scoff at the idea that I can EVEN DREAM of going to Caltech. Some of them have my interest in mind and wants to bring me back to reality. Some just don’t friggin’ care and just want me to fail.

And then there’s my own perception of my ability. I’m not exactly the best student in class. I’m not the first person classmates go to for help, and I’m not the one with the best scores for exams and assignments. I know all these. In fact, at some destructive period of my life (which goes in a cycle and arise at some point or another in a quarter, always), I get passive aggressive, not do my work, lie for the work I haven’t done, get dependent on classmates, and just don’t give a crap about my education. I think there’s miles of improvements to go for me when it comes to responsibilities and discipline.

And what took the cake was this:

The keyword here is “Five-year totals”.

There’s 4 days to deadline, I haven’t started, and I’m not sure if this is what I want anymore.

“That knowing is better than wandering.”

“That waking is better than sleeping.”

Oh the things poet do to hide away their dysfunctionality.

…Oh nobody knows.

Watching Grey’s Anatomy Season 1. =)

Despite the lack of sleep, I managed to squeeze enough brain juice for the Chemistry midterm today. My professor was so sweet by passing me tissue and cough candy in the middle of the exam.

TGIF. Maybe I’ll catch a movie later… But lemme nurse on my splitting head first.

Yes Plisss……Blek.

I had a flashback of how I used to have a blink 182 Enemy of the state cassette(I know, but that was 2001), and how in sec 1 I used to discuss their dialog with Shukri.

I torrent-ed the whole album again, and their jokes still get me laughing hard, 7 years later. I love you, Blink 182.

“Shit, piss, fuck, cunt, cocksucker, motherfucker, tits, fart, terd, and twat”